April 30, 2011


As I write this, I'm watching Just Like Heaven with Reese Witherspoon.  It's set in San Francisco, the city that has stolen my heart, the city I work in, the city I'm planning to move back to as soon as I can.  This movie has a great apartment, which feeds my dreams to help me manifest a beautiful place of my own.

I'm so excited about my future.  It doesn't take much to turn me around.  All I need are my ideas, my dreams and a bit of hope.  That is what I love about life.  We always have those things if we know where to look.  All of us dream about what we want in life, and those dreams are unique to each of us.   No one else can see what I see.  No one can perfectly envision what I envision for myself.  I can describe it to the best of my ability, but you still won't see it exactly as I do.  

Earlier today, I was thinking about disappearing, vanishing, never to be seen or heard from again.   But that was in that moment.  I really do like my life.  I really do love my dreams.  I have great plans for my future.  I would be sad if I ultimately gave up what I hope for most.  It's a great fantasy to change everything: my name, my look, my city, my life.  But what I need to remember is that if I actually do what I want and get everything that I hope for, that is the change that I ultimately want!  Then I will be different.  I will have a new life.  I will be a new person.  But I will also have everything I have ever wanted and dreamed about.  That, my friends, is having my cake and eating it too! 

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