Maybe I should have called this post "Same Time, Next Year". Today is my 45th birthday. I cannot believe it's been a year since I've posted. Things are always happening, time rushes by. I have ideas for posts, but end up tweeting them instead of writing this blog.
So much has happened in the past year. I was living at the beach in San Francisco with roommates. We had a great apartment with amazing views. I had a beautiful pink bedroom. Now things have changed. I'm currently in Berkeley, just across the Bay. It's temporary while I look for my own apartment in the City. There are lots of stories in between, which I will share as individual posts to fill you in as time goes by.
It seems that I'm always looking for an apartment, doesn't it? How many times have I written posts about my dream apartment? I guess I'm still on the hunt, but I think the problem lies within me.
I'm frequently full of what-if's, and then those things seem to come to pass. My what-if's are negative in nature. I have worries, as we all do. However worrying is praying for what you don't want and I've come to realize that I might be living proof of this. Yes I have had many positive things happen to me for which I am grateful, but I wonder where I'd be if I got rid of the negative what-if's. (I guess that makes that a positive what-if.) What if I didn't think of bad possibilities, but only good? Where would I be right now? I'll tell you...
I'd be in that perfect apartment. I'd have a much better job. I'd be healthier in mind and body. I wouldn't be sabotaging myself. I'd likely even have love in my life.
Today is my birthday. I started out this day by sleeping in, talking on the phone with friends as I had coffee, then I baked some cinnamon rolls-- from a can in the refrigerated section, not vegan, shame on me-- and I will be having a pajama day, and watching my favorite movies. I had wanted to go to Carmel for my 45th, but I think my what-if's derailed my dreams because here I am, definitely not in Carmel.
Here is to a new year of possibilities. A new year of accomplishments! Not just being resourceful and surviving, but flourishing, thriving, and enjoying a life of abundance! Happy Birthday to me!