I'm afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of the unknown, of what I cannot see. I'm also realizing that I'm afraid of love for the same reason, afraid of the unknown, afraid of the future I cannot yet see. Do you think when you love more and more, it's normal for more and more fear to come into it as well?
I always say fear is just praying for what you don't want. But for me personally, the deeper I love, the more fear I feel because that only tells me the hurt will be greater if things fall through. Maybe I'm always assuming things will fall through because they always have in my world. But maybe they fall through because I have that fear and since fear is praying for what I don't want, I'm getting just that.
You know, I always get pissy when someone tries to reason with me using circular logic, yet here I am, reasoning with myself using circular logic. LOL Oh jeez. How ironic. Maybe that has always been my problem and I've only just now figured it out. Good thing for my rambling thoughts.